Listening to: Nevershoutnever! Possibly my new favorite artist
Random Thought of the Day: I should probably be in my math class right now
I've always wondered... does fate exist?
this is a matter I contemplated last night,
as I painted adhesive on
many loose strings
how lives intertwine and paths collide
if a split second's difference can steel one's gut
or a casual conversation change your life
I never imagined I'd meet
one of my closest friends on a improbable whim
cultured by Disney,
I thought that in life:
if things are meant to be,
life will veer itself back on track
like atoms in a dual chamber capsule will
tend towards equilibrium.
and though for a while I was
disillusioned
lately, I think, I've been looking back
and discovering the truths of my past convictions
26.4.10
13.4.10
真的舍不得
Listening to: Guilty- Usher
Random Thought of the Day: 这样的人生.。。。 太可怜了吧？
想不起来当时我列给你的原因了
是不是我失去了我的原则,
想找到的方向离我越来越远
本来想忘记你的声音
忘了你的温柔就够了
没想到.。。。 我还是忘不了你.
lack of sleep is getting to my head.
on other recent notes
go read david's blog. sums up a pretty epic night haha
except he forgot to mention that TJ and I totally own him at pipe scaling. ninja ftw!
Random Thought of the Day: 这样的人生.。。。 太可怜了吧？
想不起来当时我列给你的原因了
是不是我失去了我的原则,
想找到的方向离我越来越远
本来想忘记你的声音
忘了你的温柔就够了
没想到.。。。 我还是忘不了你.
lack of sleep is getting to my head.
on other recent notes
go read david's blog. sums up a pretty epic night haha
except he forgot to mention that TJ and I totally own him at pipe scaling. ninja ftw!
5.4.10
Long Time No Blog!
Listening to: Qing Tian - Jay Chou
Random Thought of the Day: slightly dizzy from hookah @.@
hm... every time i have a resolution to blog more often it ends up not working out =d but anyways.
first week is over with! I've been so much more productive than usual... I wonder if that's because I'm really trying to change myself, or whether this is just the usual burst of first-week adrenaline that slowly fades off as school becomes more of a regularity. I hope it's the former.
but anyways. things have been interesting. my life is such a laundry list of eclectic activities. I've been having hell week for hip hop, yet I still found time to sit around with beers at 4 in the morning with mikey and ray. I realized that I really like talking to people that are much older than I am... they're usually much more insightful and/or opinionated.
I think I changed.
But anyways. I wonder if it's okay yet =d
I have 10am class tomorrow, and here I am blogging at 5am. Typical me... I always pick the most inconvenient times to blog.
Another epiphany: i think i like being busy partially because life is so much less complicated when you barely have time to think straight. It's pretty mechanical, running from one thing to the next, but at least you always know: when one thing is over, there'll always be something else waiting for you.
and then a serious question: how do you make friends with people? so frustrating..
Random Thought of the Day: slightly dizzy from hookah @.@
hm... every time i have a resolution to blog more often it ends up not working out =d but anyways.
first week is over with! I've been so much more productive than usual... I wonder if that's because I'm really trying to change myself, or whether this is just the usual burst of first-week adrenaline that slowly fades off as school becomes more of a regularity. I hope it's the former.
but anyways. things have been interesting. my life is such a laundry list of eclectic activities. I've been having hell week for hip hop, yet I still found time to sit around with beers at 4 in the morning with mikey and ray. I realized that I really like talking to people that are much older than I am... they're usually much more insightful and/or opinionated.
I think I changed.
But anyways. I wonder if it's okay yet =d
I have 10am class tomorrow, and here I am blogging at 5am. Typical me... I always pick the most inconvenient times to blog.
Another epiphany: i think i like being busy partially because life is so much less complicated when you barely have time to think straight. It's pretty mechanical, running from one thing to the next, but at least you always know: when one thing is over, there'll always be something else waiting for you.
and then a serious question: how do you make friends with people? so frustrating..
24.3.10
Starcraft!
Listening to: Bed Rock - Young Money
Random Thought of the Day: a quickie blog and then back to starcraft hehe XP i'm so excited for thursday!
sometimes i feel like theres this other person inside me who is a vindictive pessimistic bitch waiting for my moment of weakness to worm her way out. As much as I hate these types of people, lately she's been taking the reins more and more often. I don't want to be her, and think it's time for me to regain control of my own mentality. Positivity! Yoshhhhh! Therefore to make amends: if I've bashed on you in the last... however many posts, I'm sorry.
also, in related notes:
i don't know if what i've heard is true, but if it is, i'm happy for you. i'm glad things are [hopefully] working out and stuff. ganbaru! ^__^ i'm rooting for ya haha
midnight vchatting is fun heehee... or rather.. midnight vchatting.. that ends up being like.. 4am vchatting <3
spring break has been amazing so far. I think i needed this to clear my head.
Random Thought of the Day: a quickie blog and then back to starcraft hehe XP i'm so excited for thursday!
sometimes i feel like theres this other person inside me who is a vindictive pessimistic bitch waiting for my moment of weakness to worm her way out. As much as I hate these types of people, lately she's been taking the reins more and more often. I don't want to be her, and think it's time for me to regain control of my own mentality. Positivity! Yoshhhhh! Therefore to make amends: if I've bashed on you in the last... however many posts, I'm sorry.
also, in related notes:
i don't know if what i've heard is true, but if it is, i'm happy for you. i'm glad things are [hopefully] working out and stuff. ganbaru! ^__^ i'm rooting for ya haha
midnight vchatting is fun heehee... or rather.. midnight vchatting.. that ends up being like.. 4am vchatting <3
spring break has been amazing so far. I think i needed this to clear my head.
20.3.10
origami hydralisks
Listening to: nothing better - postal service
Random Thought of the Day: i refuse to look at any more grades until spring break is over. i've decided to proactively NOT ruin my own bliss.
brief recap of this quarter:
i fucked up.
that's about it... sure, there's things i did right, but for the most part this quarter has been one fuck up after the next. Of course, some of my actions I'm quite proud of (shotgunning right after beer bong? not many small asian girls can say they've done that, i'm sure =d ) but even more are the ones I'd rather would fade away into oblivion and wipe from my memory.
but I definitely learned a lot this quarter, both of what I need to change in myself, and what to expect of other people.
basically it comes down to this:
i need to focus on school, and that's it. dance HAS to take shotgun just because at this point i'll be on academic probation if i keep fucking with my priorities.
and also, as much as i think i need someone, i don't. for the most part i need to wean myself off the expectations that just because someone says they'll do something or they feel something, that's really what they mean. there will be people, but i don't need them. those kinds of relationships are disposable; they come and go with each minor trauma and in the end, nothing changes. as much as i can feel hurt and betrayed and forgotten, life moves on. so why should i bother feeling hurt and betrayed and forgotten? I'd rather be the one that lets go first. so that is how it will be.
time wasted cultivating those types of relationships... i treasure the moments i spend with my TRUE friends more. and i can't believe that i missed out on that until now. i'd rather spend my time on crazy midnight jaunts, dancing to the delirium induced tunes floating from the toneless voices scratchy with academia. and that is how it will be. chicks before dicks, school before tools.
and let me just append this for clarification: you probably don't know this is for you, but I am so fucking angry at you right now.
Random Thought of the Day: i refuse to look at any more grades until spring break is over. i've decided to proactively NOT ruin my own bliss.
brief recap of this quarter:
i fucked up.
that's about it... sure, there's things i did right, but for the most part this quarter has been one fuck up after the next. Of course, some of my actions I'm quite proud of (shotgunning right after beer bong? not many small asian girls can say they've done that, i'm sure =d ) but even more are the ones I'd rather would fade away into oblivion and wipe from my memory.
but I definitely learned a lot this quarter, both of what I need to change in myself, and what to expect of other people.
basically it comes down to this:
i need to focus on school, and that's it. dance HAS to take shotgun just because at this point i'll be on academic probation if i keep fucking with my priorities.
and also, as much as i think i need someone, i don't. for the most part i need to wean myself off the expectations that just because someone says they'll do something or they feel something, that's really what they mean. there will be people, but i don't need them. those kinds of relationships are disposable; they come and go with each minor trauma and in the end, nothing changes. as much as i can feel hurt and betrayed and forgotten, life moves on. so why should i bother feeling hurt and betrayed and forgotten? I'd rather be the one that lets go first. so that is how it will be.
time wasted cultivating those types of relationships... i treasure the moments i spend with my TRUE friends more. and i can't believe that i missed out on that until now. i'd rather spend my time on crazy midnight jaunts, dancing to the delirium induced tunes floating from the toneless voices scratchy with academia. and that is how it will be. chicks before dicks, school before tools.
and let me just append this for clarification: you probably don't know this is for you, but I am so fucking angry at you right now.
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