Listening to: Easier to Run - Linkin Park
Random Thought of the Day: asldkhfalshdf taking hiphop class <3


i've replaced one thing with another
dono if thats smart or not..

so many things to say...




******* makes the time goes faster

stupid

Listening to: Rediscovering my love for hard rock
Random Thought of the Day: time to bring back punk?

i'm happy i think?
but not really
throwing myself into dance
is what i should have been doing all along

i guess i'm less happy
than i am satisfied / appeased.

something stupid again.

I'm hoping someday you'll forgive me

Listening to:
Random Thought of the Day:

i passed a store in a westwood that made me think of him
unwittingly i bought 2 jars of his favorite hotsauce
and i'm not even super into that crunchy pepper oil stuff
I have to keep changing songs because sometimes
I accidentally find myself listening to those old songs

i have some lyrics for him

leave me out with the waste
this is not what i do
this is the wrong kind of place
to be thinking of you

i wonder if someone will pass it on
already i'm nervous and i wonder

if that's allright, yeah
if i give my gun away when its loaded
is that alright, yeah
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?


on a brighter note
here's a twitter documenting my and my roommates' random idiocy.
good times

clever is my specialty

Listening to: When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne
Random Thought of the Day: I made my first official playlist ever today. it's all emo shit.

what the fuck is wrong with me
i've been trying to study since 3pm and I've read 5 lines
standing and sitting and then standing again because
when i sit my legs feel like jello
and when i stand i'd feel like sitting would make me less dizzy
wanting to sleep it all away, waste away
without appetite and conviction
a moment too late
wondering if i faded away, would you feel a thing?
i'm willing to test it, and i wonder
how far can i push myself
its like
determination vs deterioration

Listening to: random oldies that peter is playing in the office
Random Thought of the Day: where's a squirtle when you need one?



lol
i don't ususally write short entries
when i do...

Listening to: Bad Romance - Lady Gaga
Random Thought of the Day:I keep hearing Usher- Burn everywhere, even though that song is wayy old. hence, its now been stuck in my head for 3 days.
... great..




i wrote a little poem and it goes a lil something like this:

dirty dirty bitch slut slut whore dirty dirty
cunt cunt don't you want to run run
run away from everything, anything
things you can't pretend
to understand,
stand and curtsy for the times you
made them worry for you

midterm cramming already?

Listening to: Cable Car Stars via Myspace
Random Thought of the Day: ;____; E = F what?

i'm a tired girl
tired but happy :]

Friends

click click click click
obsessive fingers tapping across
a plate of glass or
plastic pushpins
waiting for empty promises or drunken jibberish
every mumble scrutinized and
every sorry letter picked apart
twitching and tapping
no amount of continual fixation
will force you to reveal yourself
i lust
no
crave
just playful meaningless nothing
until i realize
i'm just another among twenty
waiting for the same.

Listening to: Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
Random Thought of the Day: I'm in a weird kinda mood nowadays

bubbles and foam
choke
whirl and spin
forgotten
the bottle breaks

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...
why do you think you can read me like an open book
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i dont think its cuz i'm not as perceptive...

Listening to:  Alicia Keys - Thats How Strong My Love Is
Random Thought of the Day: NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO D:

alcohol + 3 hours + pocky + cookies + spilled 7 dollar coke + love doll + yuck + 9am


=
I  can't believe its 4am and I still have CS homework to do...

Happy New Years!

Listening to: b2st
Random Thought of the Day: i kinda want school to start!

to be honest,
sometimes i hate the part of me that condones those things
those stupid disgusting things

this year i have one resolution only
stop making excuses.

you can want whatever the fuck you want
but you can't just sit around talking and wanting and not doing for forever
at some point, you have to make an honest attempt
so i'm going to stop making excuses for why i'm failing at all the wrong things
and i'm going to just do the things that need to be done.

that's the starting point for everything, anyways.


to quote Steven: i officially declare this year a year of asskicking