a belated I AM THANKFUL!

Listening to: the humming of electronics
Random Thought of the Day: mmmm photoshop. i wish i could learn japanese. or korean.

i'm thankful for....

a boyfriend who is always understanding, especiallly of the fact that my life revolves around ACA LOL
my parents, for dropping off food and medicine for me at 7am on a work day, and for respecting and trusting the decision i make
my best friends, who are always there for me, regardless of many miles are between us, and how much i (accidentally) neglect them.
my amazing roommates, who never cease to put a smile on my face, show up randomly with boba, and try (unsuccessfully) to make me study
my boyfriend's roommates, who are like brothers to me, and carry me home and sing taylor swift together to keep me awake when i have too much fun with them at parties =X
my (unrelated) brothers, for always protecting me and babying me, even though i see them like.. four times a year. (especially michael, who drives all the way from irvine to visit <3)
UCLA, and at all the amazing experiences it has given me
America, and the chance to grow up here
my body, which, luckily, is whole and strong, and puts up with all the abuse i put it through (yay dance)
technology... otherwise i can't be a computer science major, right? XP
an awesome, spectacular, better than words could ever express second family at LA, who share my deepest love (dance) with me until the wee hours of the morning, in the most inconvenient (or... convenient..) of places (yeahh parkin lots!)
the coords, who toil to no end to make us the BEST TEAM EVARRRR
the alumni, who take time out of their schedules to read our spam and visit us and choregraph for us <3
and finally, all the people i met through ACA hiphop this year, who are willing to pull crazy all nighters studyin and make 1am bcafe runs and swipe me for food and take 5 hours bus rides with me to go get our ears pierced and look for my dinner when i leave it at work and make weird poses with me at photoshooot and drive me home after practice... well it goes on..

I LOVE EVERYONEE!!!

I need to shower in disinfectant

Listening to: Tears Into Wine - Billy Talent
Random Thought of the Day: I really really REALLY should be studying

I just cooked lunch, and realized that all my utensils were gone, but I couldnt get a few out of the sink cuz they were buried under a week's worth of dishes in the sink. Yes, I know that I'm culpable of forgetting to wash my dishes, but seriously?

I decided to wash everyone's dishes, cuz honestly I was pissed that no one else took the initiative to do it. Especially because I've already done everyone's dishes, like twice.

First of all, the pile of dishes extended past the top of the sink, which just shows how long we haven't washed anything. ALL of my knives were in the sink. ALL of them. I'm not even the one that uses them! So were both of the non-veggie spatulas.

So at first, it wasn't too bad... all of the dishes were a quick rinse...but by the time i got to the bottom of the pile, where all the utensils had floated, I found....

like.. 1/4 package of cooked ramen, with something vaguely representing vegetables like.. rotting onto the bottom of the sink, and some of the utensils and plates. I was literally scratching dried/rotted veggies off cups. There was also pear peels. I know those were fresh, cuz I saw *** peeling them yesterday. Seriously, WHY the fuck would you put MORE food into a pile of dishes, of which certainly food was already at the bottom? Especially, why would you put more food INTO the rotting pile, and then not bother to clean any of it?

I literally had to like.. disentangle forks and chopsticks from ramen. Not only that, but the thing we use to catch food to make sure stuff we dont want to fall into the sink doesnt fall into the sink...
the food that was MATTED and SQUISHED onto it had turned BROWN and smelled like.. iono.. sour milk. it took me SOO long to figure out how to get it out without touching it. GROSS GUYS.

yeah. and now everything is washed and piled into the dish rack.


thanks for being proactive, guys.



that was really ranty, but I do really like the people I live with. I'm sincerely apologetic for the vast amount of hipocrasy in the rant I just wrote, because I leave my dishes in the sink very often..





ON ANOTHER NOTE...
i'm tired ;___;
one last midterm!
GOGOGO!

Life Is Good

Listening to: Sign Here - Ice Nine Kills
Random Thought of the Day: I should be cramming EE right now...

So I found out that I pretty much failed all my midterms LOL
I got a 35/100 on EE1, and 77/100 on Maths, and I'm gonna ask my friend to pick up my physics midterm... although I'm pretty sure I didn't do too well on that either.

I know that was kind of depressing... but the nice thing is, I'm not that depressed! I used to care so much about whether I got an A or an A+, and little distinctions like that, but I feel like I've chilled out SO much this year. Maybe it's cuz I've just given up to the idea that my classes are too overwhelming right now, and I'd be happy with whatever, so long as its like.. an A. Okay so maybe I haven't chilled. But even so, with all the bad news academically, LIFE IS GOODDDDDD

Hip hop is AMAZINGGGGG! I feel like I'm bonding with everyone really well, which is GREAT, becuas eI can't say the same for dance in high school. There's definitely not as much drama and elitism, and I think that's partially because this is a competitive team, so if we DON'T bond well and work well together, it would be pretty darn hard to win.

and... I'm back with my baby <3
I guess all along I was vacillating back and forth between whether or not I made the right choice... but in the end, I guess I missed the good times too much. And now, I'm back spending like.. wayy too much time at his place... and everything feels perfect. Just the way it should be ^__^ Even IF his roommates are very distracting, and pretty much make me very academically counterproductive. Still, I love them all. And I love my baby the most <3

I love my roommates too.
TJ I LOVE YOUUUUU [because I know that at some point you're going to read this]
JEN I LOVE YOU TOOOO [but you won't see this ever :[ LOL ]
yes. you two are amazing. Even if i dont see you guys that much. But still. <3<3<3 ^__^

Okays time to go start EE. except my class is in an hour.
I guess that means I should procrastinate for 30 more minutes.. THEN go to class!
YAYY LIFE!

Asian Music Yay

Listening to: Forever Love - Wang Li Hom
Random Thought of the Day: t - 6 hours for physics midterm!

Forever 才了解自己 未来这些日子
要好好珍惜 爱我 有些痛苦 有些不公平
如果真的爱我 不是理所当然的决定


I've been liking really ballady songs lately.
And watching tons of really really lovely, sad dances.
in particular, this one.

watch it, love it.


yeah it is AMAZING.
The song is The Faces by Ryandan. It is AMAZINGGGG

Listening to: Chris Brown - With You
Random Thought of the Day: i am fuxed for my midterm. again.

would you guess it breaks my heart?

I still don't know why
I do these things to myself.




i'm listening to sad songs again.
but maybe they're not actually sad
but only sad because i make them so.
go figure.