Listography

I realized: I really like making lists. Despite the general disorderliness of my general behavior (i.e. my room (or just chores in general), my forgetfulness) I like being well organized. I like scheduling my studying (and, occasionally, deviating completely from said schedules) and planning out things that need to be done. It's just that I seem to never have enough time to finish everything on my list.

But anyways, I realized that I don't really watch movies / TV-Shows that often. I've even stopped reading! D: So I figure I need to make lists of movies i want to see, shows I want to watch, and books I want to read... maybe when I have some spare time (eventually), I can look back on this list and know exactly what I should tackle first? also, if anything on my list is something YOU, yes, YOU either haven't seen, or would like to rewatch, LET  ME KNOW! I love movie/TV Show marathons!

Movies

American History X
Star Wars ( 4-6 )
Indiana Jones (i've never watched any of them, ever!)
Garden State
Titanic
Maltese Falcon
American Beauty

Books italicized = own a copy of but have not read... i.e. MUST READ ASAP D:

Atlas Shrugged
Catch-22
Slaughterhouse-Five
Eldest / Brisingr
Lolita
Battlefield Earth
Lord Of The Rings (i tried this once already, but it's wayyy dense. Maybe I'll attempt this again sometime in the future =d ) 
Heart of Darkness
Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (I've read the namesake, but I want to read the rest of the series!)
A Clockwork Orange
Farenheit 451
The Little Prince
Crime and Punishment
A Wrinkle In Time
Grapes of Wrath
Alice in Wonderland
One Hundred Years of Solitude
A Tale of Two Cities
A Thousand Splendid Suns
Life of Pi (actually, I'm like.. 5/6 done with this... maybe i'll just borrow it sometime and kill it =d )
Lovely Bones (I started this too.. but it was so long ago I forgot :[ I need to reread the part I did read D: ]
Middlesex (ack I think i'm on pg 40 of this.. the beginning is really slow... another one of the ones i need to reread from the beginning.. damn it ;___; )

i think i could probably keep on listing forever, but I'll stop now..

TV Showsthis is probably the list of shows I wish I could keep up with, but know I never will be able to ;___; 
in other words, this is the list of popular references I wish I understood..

Friends
Gossip Girl (i'm.. uh.. 6 episodes into season 1!)
Pretty Little Liars (I might start this soon!)
Futurama (I think ive watched over a season of this.. I watched an entire season on the way to vegas once =d )
The Office
House
Dollhouse (sounds so cool! )

Animes/Dramasyes, this is a separate category from TV shows.

Full House
1000 Litres of Tears
Iris
Nobuta Wo Produce (sorry Stina! Im still only like.. 5 episodes in D: )
Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood
Pandora Hearts

hm.. that list was surprisingly short..

Mangasyet another list of stuff I wish I had to keep up with..

Skip Beat (I'm like... 150 chapters into this manga, and then I forgot about it completely for a month! D: )
Nana (I read like.. 200 chapters of this before I stopped.. I feel like if i ever started again, I'd have to reread, just like I reread ALL of naruto..)
Naruto (i think I still remember enough of this to catch up... if i ever have the time. it's getting interesting again! )
Wall Flower

yup. now if you ever feel the want to buy me something ( ;D ) get me something from the above list LOL :D

I HAVENT BLOGGED IN SOOO LONGGG!!!

Listening to: Stab My Back - AAR Random Thought of the Day: I've been thinking a lot recently @.@ confuzzledness

Continuing the trend of blogging right before midterms, I have a midterm this thursday, and as you can see, i'm blogging, not studying... Although, I'm currently at work, so I suppose I can cut myself some slack.

I'm surprised.. I've been relatively on top of my shit so far this summer. I did every single problem my stats professor assigned (and didnt assign =O ), and I've been, for the most part, consistently reading for CS180. Hopefully I'll be able to continue this trend through the year :] Not to mention, I've still been able to go out almost every night (mostly to Anh's place =d ) and hang out with my friends. yayyyy :D

So... since I haven't blogged in a while, here's a picture anthology of my summer so far! [not very complete :[ I'm, sadly, very inconsistent with the camphone pictures, and I hardly take my SLR out anymore since it's so bulky. I want to take more pictures! D:



in order:
1. Making tapioca for boba! with T. and Y.
2. Shrimp fried rice; for J. A. and S.
3. Break dancers; Santa Monica with S.
4. Alcoholic Rabbits; Costco with Chris
5. Punks; Warped Tour with A., B., and T.
6. Pink's with R.
7. KBBQ; O Dae San with A, J, S. S.
8. Popped Tire; Arcadia with E. S. S. J. A., photo courtesy of J.
9. Soulful Souffle; Arcadia with E. S. S. J. A., photo courtesy of J
10. Saint Motel concert; Hammer Museum with T. and S.
11. Perfect cheesecake; Baked with E. for V. cuuuute :D
12.Babyyyy! <3


Yup! Eventful summer so far! :D And this isn't even the half of it. I'm loving that despite the ridiculous pile of work I have all the time... I still have time to do amazing stuff like this. Yay summer <3

Still looking forward to:
1. A. finally bringing his car
2. Inception on opening night!
3. Marathoning starwars
4. FFXIII + Boba
5. DANCE WORKSHOPS GALOREEEE

yay long post to make up for lack of posting.

camera whore

since a replacement charger for my dslr finally shipped, and I now have a 5 megapixel camera phone I figure I should put these lenses to use. from now on I will be taking pictures if everything I buy and eat, as well as one random picture for my project 365. if you're interested, they're on my tumblr:

r0mant1k.tumblr.com

let's see how long I can keep this up!

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entry#100: TL;DR

Listening to: Mystery - B2ST
Random Thought of the Day: things i dont understand...


I feel like for my 100th post, I should probably write something meaningful. The following entry is probably just going to be an insanely long essay full of stream-of-conscious blathering. I guess, in a way, it'll just be me unloading things that have been on my mind recently, because I feel like my brain has been really crowded as of late.

Life
Recently, a lot of my friends have been going through minor quarter-life crises about what they want to do with their lives. I don't know if it's because they're so worried that I've begun to reconsider, as well, or because it's a concern that I've been suppressing in the back of my own mind. When people ask me what I want to do with my life, a year ago I would have confidently answered, " I want to become a pediatrician," last month I would have remarked with just as much certainty, " I want to work at a startup, and then go back to school and get a MBA." Now, though, I'm torn again- a week ago, I was half-heartedly joking that perhaps I should switch back into Life Sciences, because I seemed to be so much better at it. Is it because I'm worried that my grades won't be good enough for any [particularly, NYU's Stern ] business schools to admit me? Are my various accomplishments indicative of my abilities to do well as an entrepreneur? I have no clue, and it scares me. I'm the type of person who only likes things that I'm good at, and my present major is, to say the least, difficult. A more accurate way to represent how I feel about computer science is that it is a love-hate relationship, filled with "why the hell did I choose this" and " oh my god kill me now" moments. But as much as I despair that CS might be something I really have no aptitude for, it is something I desperately wish to excel at. I feel that the topic suits me - I love technology and learning about how technology works, I love puzzle-solving and seeing pieces of code translate into an almost-tangible change in the programs I write.

On the other hand, I lust after the courage to stray from a well-beaten path. It's kind of funny, and insanely hypocritical, that when others ask for my opinion on whether they should search for a 'conventional' job that they may not like as opposed to following their dreams, I always tell them to follow their dreams. Perhaps that's my way of living vicariously through others - I myself do not have the perseverance necessary to pursue what I really love, so I encourage others who are more dedicated than I, to do so. It seems selfish, pushing others to take the leap of faith when I'm too scared to even look over the cliff, but I wholeheartedly believe in the ability of my friends to achieve their dreams. I, however, wasted half my life chasing pipe dreams and living among the clouds.  Maybe that's why I should probably stay away from half-assed truths and stick to the things I know will pull me through life.

I guess for now, I can only stay steadfast to the path I've chosen. In two years, I will be graduating and joining the working force; it is too late for me to waver over minor losses of faith in my ability to do well at CS. I like to think that if I study hard enough, I can accomplish anything I set my mind to... so the first course of action, I suppose, will be to study hard. My parents once told me that the curse of America is that there are too many choices. If you give a person no options, he will eventually grow to like (or at least, be accustomed to) the path picked for him. Maybe, that's what I need to believe in: a steady career that puts food on the table first, loving my job comes later.

People always express their astonishment at the number of things I'm involved in. Shoot, sometimes, I'm astonished too, and ask myself, "how the hell did I wind up in this position?" The answer is probably either, I'm not good at saying No, or I'm too ambitious for my own good. I realize what I'm getting myself into probably won't be pretty, but when faced with the prospects of having to cut certain extracurriculars out of my life, I'm at a loss. I couldn't possibly imagine how I'd live without dancing; at the same time, I want to be involved in UPE and TBP because they're the extracurriculars that will help me the most in my future career. I can't possibly stop working, because I need the money, but how many jobs do I need - two, three, four - before i'm satisfied? I feel like, at some point, the sheer volume of the things I need to do might just overwhelm me, but as of right now, I'm happy being busy. Until that time, I'm going to try my best to balance as much as I can.

Love
I have nothing to say on this matter.
Well I do, but I'm just confused for now.
and i'm kind of pissed at myself. But that's another story.

In Between
 I just read through the last 99 entries of my blog. It took an hour. My life for the past year, in one hour. I guess what I've summed it all up to be is: I used to be happy, and then I was hella-fucking-emo, and then now I'm moodswingy. I suppose its because I still haven't found what I'm looking for. Over the last 99 jumbled, rambling, 10 word to essay-long entries, I've become darker, more cynical, more lost. As much as I want to say that I don't like it, I've said that before. But  I think I'm slowly changing for the better. Or, I hope.

I hope that in the next 100 posts, i will overall become a better person, like the person in my absolute favorite post of the last 99.

Why is the editor on blogger.com when the doman is user.blogspot.com?

Listening to: My TA drone on about encryption and threat protection
Random Thought of the Day: mmmm popcorn...

I feel like lately, I don't have much to say. School is almost over, and with that comes the end of another chapter of my life. Time marches relentlessly on, endless days pass where I am awake, asleep, unconscious, and then awake again, and events are disjointed in my mind in some grotesque Gaussian blur. I've lost sense of continuance, that four comes after two and between three and five. Months seem like minutes, minutes seem like hours, days fly by like seconds, and all of a sudden I realize that a week has passed, and I'm waking up on a Sunday morning, not a Friday afternoon.

Something must be wrong with me, or is this a byproduct of every hasty college student's life? The buzzing in my brain plays like a deaf man's orchestra, muting all lucid thoughts from traipsing through my conscious. I'm sapped of my creativity. I stare blankly at the ghost of an article, almost as blankly as I stare at math, and despair that inspiration fails to visit me yet again. The pen, held so resolutely in an uplifted hand, is replaced reluctantly, and the click clicking of the mouse resumes. If I distract myself, perhaps a lurking shred of insight will float into my brain?

It's too late/early; I'm not thinking straight.

summer plans
warped tour + road trip with TJ
anime expo with Steven
FILM FESTS with lots of different people - no procrastination, i WILL finally watch star wars [among craploads of other movies]
san diego for kait's partayyy?
learn more japanese / learn some korean!

excited to finally have some [ish] free time!