Listening to: Random music being played at kerckhoff
Random Thought of the Day: just ordered a red-eye for the first time at Kerckhoff. omnomnom caffeine!
I keep thinking that it's been ages since I last posted, but in reality it's only been 10 days... Its been a crazy hectic week, what with practice, projects, and all sorts of requirements for upcoming inductions. In fact, in about 20 minutes, I'll be heading off to Royce to complete the "Attend one professional event" requirement for Tau Beta Pi. But despite being so mind-bogglingly busy, I think I enjoy the look of an agenda page packed with scrawls of to-dos and events. It gives me a sense of purpose. Although it's probably not the best way to find a 'calling,' so far I've felt like my year was pretty fulfilling, as far as extracurriculars go. Academics, not so much... but I'll not get into that.
Last night, I played speed uno with a bunch of my friends. It was pretty spontaneous, since I was supposed to be working on a CS project, but since I've never really hung out socially with this group of friends before, I went along just for the ride. Even though everyone was kind of coupled off and I was the seventh wheel (lollll) it was still uber fun! I'm once again feeling that sense of belonging and satisfaction that I haven't felt since... well... a while... at least, in such a large group. Having been a floater most of my life, not ever 'belonging' in a group has been a stigma for me as long as I can remember. But I think I've found a niche that I really feel comfortable in, with people I really identify with (maybe it's cuz 4 of us are CS majors LOL...) and enjoy being around.
With that said, I'm looking forward to the coming months. Finals is gonna be a bitch, as always, but I'm gonna prep early, and prep well, so I'll be prepared. I'll take a leaf out of Jessica's book and front load my work, so hopefully I wont have to end up pulling multiple all nighters again D: And then... it'll be FREEDOMM! I can't freaking WAIT. My warped tour ticket is pinned to my bulletin board, and I've got an egg of a helluva vacation plan, just waiting to hatch. I'M SO PUMPED!
Here's to good friends, good fun, and HELLA ANTICIPATION FOR SUMMERRRRRRR!!
15.5.10
5.5.10
Listening to: Nevershoutnever [in preparation for warped tour!]
Random Thought of the Day: lately i've been having the same recurring dream: wading through sewers, escaping from some sort of monster, and swimming through a underground tunnel towards the faint beams of light. I don't remember ever breaking the surface, though.
it's getting harder to breathe now
there are too many idle moments
idle dangerous moments
it's so tempting to think how easy
how simple it would be just
never again to wake
never smell the light of day
i smile, i cringe
on the inside, i'm haunted by little things
choices choices choices
to be or not to be
is that the question? or
is that escape?
Random Thought of the Day: lately i've been having the same recurring dream: wading through sewers, escaping from some sort of monster, and swimming through a underground tunnel towards the faint beams of light. I don't remember ever breaking the surface, though.
it's getting harder to breathe now
there are too many idle moments
idle dangerous moments
it's so tempting to think how easy
how simple it would be just
never again to wake
never smell the light of day
i smile, i cringe
on the inside, i'm haunted by little things
choices choices choices
to be or not to be
is that the question? or
is that escape?
26.4.10
is this my fate?
Listening to: Nevershoutnever! Possibly my new favorite artist
Random Thought of the Day: I should probably be in my math class right now
I've always wondered... does fate exist?
this is a matter I contemplated last night,
as I painted adhesive on
many loose strings
how lives intertwine and paths collide
if a split second's difference can steel one's gut
or a casual conversation change your life
I never imagined I'd meet
one of my closest friends on a improbable whim
cultured by Disney,
I thought that in life:
if things are meant to be,
life will veer itself back on track
like atoms in a dual chamber capsule will
tend towards equilibrium.
and though for a while I was
disillusioned
lately, I think, I've been looking back
and discovering the truths of my past convictions
Random Thought of the Day: I should probably be in my math class right now
I've always wondered... does fate exist?
this is a matter I contemplated last night,
as I painted adhesive on
many loose strings
how lives intertwine and paths collide
if a split second's difference can steel one's gut
or a casual conversation change your life
I never imagined I'd meet
one of my closest friends on a improbable whim
cultured by Disney,
I thought that in life:
if things are meant to be,
life will veer itself back on track
like atoms in a dual chamber capsule will
tend towards equilibrium.
and though for a while I was
disillusioned
lately, I think, I've been looking back
and discovering the truths of my past convictions
13.4.10
真的舍不得
Listening to: Guilty- Usher
Random Thought of the Day: 这样的人生.。。。 太可怜了吧？
想不起来当时我列给你的原因了
是不是我失去了我的原则,
想找到的方向离我越来越远
本来想忘记你的声音
忘了你的温柔就够了
没想到.。。。 我还是忘不了你.
lack of sleep is getting to my head.
on other recent notes
go read david's blog. sums up a pretty epic night haha
except he forgot to mention that TJ and I totally own him at pipe scaling. ninja ftw!
Random Thought of the Day: 这样的人生.。。。 太可怜了吧？
想不起来当时我列给你的原因了
是不是我失去了我的原则,
想找到的方向离我越来越远
本来想忘记你的声音
忘了你的温柔就够了
没想到.。。。 我还是忘不了你.
lack of sleep is getting to my head.
on other recent notes
go read david's blog. sums up a pretty epic night haha
except he forgot to mention that TJ and I totally own him at pipe scaling. ninja ftw!
5.4.10
Long Time No Blog!
Listening to: Qing Tian - Jay Chou
Random Thought of the Day: slightly dizzy from hookah @.@
hm... every time i have a resolution to blog more often it ends up not working out =d but anyways.
first week is over with! I've been so much more productive than usual... I wonder if that's because I'm really trying to change myself, or whether this is just the usual burst of first-week adrenaline that slowly fades off as school becomes more of a regularity. I hope it's the former.
but anyways. things have been interesting. my life is such a laundry list of eclectic activities. I've been having hell week for hip hop, yet I still found time to sit around with beers at 4 in the morning with mikey and ray. I realized that I really like talking to people that are much older than I am... they're usually much more insightful and/or opinionated.
I think I changed.
But anyways. I wonder if it's okay yet =d
I have 10am class tomorrow, and here I am blogging at 5am. Typical me... I always pick the most inconvenient times to blog.
Another epiphany: i think i like being busy partially because life is so much less complicated when you barely have time to think straight. It's pretty mechanical, running from one thing to the next, but at least you always know: when one thing is over, there'll always be something else waiting for you.
and then a serious question: how do you make friends with people? so frustrating..
Random Thought of the Day: slightly dizzy from hookah @.@
hm... every time i have a resolution to blog more often it ends up not working out =d but anyways.
first week is over with! I've been so much more productive than usual... I wonder if that's because I'm really trying to change myself, or whether this is just the usual burst of first-week adrenaline that slowly fades off as school becomes more of a regularity. I hope it's the former.
but anyways. things have been interesting. my life is such a laundry list of eclectic activities. I've been having hell week for hip hop, yet I still found time to sit around with beers at 4 in the morning with mikey and ray. I realized that I really like talking to people that are much older than I am... they're usually much more insightful and/or opinionated.
I think I changed.
But anyways. I wonder if it's okay yet =d
I have 10am class tomorrow, and here I am blogging at 5am. Typical me... I always pick the most inconvenient times to blog.
Another epiphany: i think i like being busy partially because life is so much less complicated when you barely have time to think straight. It's pretty mechanical, running from one thing to the next, but at least you always know: when one thing is over, there'll always be something else waiting for you.
and then a serious question: how do you make friends with people? so frustrating..
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